You know I checked back in the diary….trying to work out that mystery of time……….I know when somethings going on….and I know…there’s going to be a pivotal point where I break out the past….I’m just not sure when it’s going to happen….because….all those reoccurring events are still happening….moment to moment….day to day…..and I just know…..that points coming again……where something happens and I just end up walking out another door….you know at the moment………everything’s in limbo….I’m just trying to break out of my own body…..most of the time my mind does it for me….and it’s like that map…..I keep looking….and knowing ..moments away…..there is something .. but then dragging myself back into the casing……sometimes everything I want to say…..is as simple…..as five words……but sometimes more than a 1000…..slowly…my mind starts drifting away….falling into the abyss of the other worlds……..there’s someone…..wanting to connect….and move beyond the self…..slowly freeing my mind again….so as to explore…..I’m falling into the dark again….and the nigh sky set’s the scene……come drift with me….
….can you hear those space voices……not like the spaces between words…but sometimes as empty as….. they try to stop the words from forming..
…the speed slows down……and everything goes still….there’s no sound…..just space……you hear yourself breathing……for a moment you stop thinking…..and then the space paranoia sets in….what are those sounds?….what are they saying?…..they’re not dreams in the night…..and it’s strange……the deeper you go into the core the darker and denser it gets….. the further you move away from it the lighter and more expansive…..but always cloaked by darkness, day to day night to night in the middle realm……
I’m looking at a white screen….yet…I can paint it black with words….